52. Deep in thought

I often find myself deep in thought. I sit there, not even knowing what I am staring toward and I concentrate on what I am pondering.
But usually, I do this at the most dumb of times. I often get into an important thought that I have been thinking about and then realize that my Mom is telling me to stop ignoring her. Or another time, I found I was staring at my sibling and she started whining at Mom how I would not stop staring at her!
But these thoughts that I am so deeply immersed into are something that I need to think about when they hit me. I do not always remember the same trains of thought I had on the subject just before being interrupted. My deepest thoughts are more important than my thoughts that tell me how that dress is ugly or how nice that guy was. I cannot seem to grab back those lost thoughts that road away on my train of thought.
Maybe when I am older, I will build a special room; a room with a side with lots of windows, on the walls and even on the ceiling. I would put many bright and happy things such as flowers and sun chairs on that side. But then, I shall hang a curtain to shadow the other side away from the light. I will have no beautiful wooden floors like the other side, only dark carpeting.
It would have a small bed to sit on or lie down on, with on black light lamp on a small round table on the side of the bed. Some stuffed animals would be on the bed and on the walls some pictures of many things.
The purpose of both of the rooms is for helping my deep thoughts. When I am in a good mood and I feel a deep thought, it will usually be a thought with a light and good feeling to it. I would use the warm sunny side for my thoughts. Other times I will feel more dark or cozy and I will want to us the other darker side of the room.
Either way, right now in my life I am still young, and alas do not have this wonderful room. So for right now, my deep thoughts will come and sit in whatever room at whatever moment. Whether getting me in trouble or making me thinks really hard, my deep thoughts are something I will never regret.

For now, pardon me I am about to go into a deep thought…

~KS