52. Deep in thoughtI often find myself deep in thought. I sit there, not even knowing what I am staring toward and I concentrate on what I am pondering.
But usually, I do this at the most dumb of times. I often get into an important thought that I have been thinking about and then realize that my Mom is telling me to stop ignoring her. Or another time, I found I was staring at my sibling and she started whining at Mom how I would not stop staring at her!
But these thoughts that I am so deeply immersed into are something that I need to think about when they hit me. I do not always remember the same trains of thought I had on the subject just before being interrupted. My deepest thoughts are more important than my thoughts that tell me how that dress is ugly or how nice that guy was. I cannot seem to grab back those lost thoughts that road away on my train of thought.
Maybe when I am older, I will build a special room; a room with a side with lots of windows, on the walls and even on the ceiling. I would p
2. LoveI am letting go. It has been three years that this gaping wound has been bleeding. I felt like I was dead. Every time I saw the people I hurt I felt such pain and self-hate inside me. If there was one word to describe me then, I could not choose. I was hurting, I was worrying, I was afraid and so much more. But I realized that all those feelings that I kept inside everyday were just eating away at me. I found that my even though my friends tried to help, it really did not help me. I could not figure out how I could let this burden slide off my back. Then, I looked behind me. He was standing there, motioning to me. He put His hands on my shoulder and looked into my eyes, "Child, if only you had looked for me sooner. I have been waiting for you; I can ease your burden and make your load light. I will take all your pain and suffering. Your load is now my load, and your pain my pain. Go child, show my love to others." He walked away, I saw His eyes. I could see love in His beautiful brown