2. Love

I am letting go. It has been three years that this gaping wound has been bleeding. I felt like I was dead. Every time I saw the people I hurt I felt such pain and self-hate inside me. If there was one word to describe me then, I could not choose. I was hurting, I was worrying, I was afraid and so much more. But I realized that all those feelings that I kept inside everyday were just eating away at me. I found that my even though my friends tried to help, it really did not help me. I could not figure out how I could let this burden slide off my back. Then, I looked behind me. He was standing there, motioning to me. He put His hands on my shoulder and looked into my eyes, "Child, if only you had looked for me sooner. I have been waiting for you; I can ease your burden and make your load light. I will take all your pain and suffering. Your load is now my load, and your pain my pain. Go child, show my love to others." He walked away, I saw His eyes. I could see love in His beautiful brown eyes as they looked back at me, while a smile was on His lips. I slowly watched Him leave, startled at first as I felt that I did not feel a heavy load anymore. My wound… it was no longer bleeding. In fact, it was no longer even there! I looked back to where He had been walking away, I wanted to thank him. But alas, He was already gone. I closed my eyes and whispered "Thank you, God." I can feel His love inside me every day now. Even if the people I hurt still do not want me around, I am not sad about it. I have left it all behind me, never to linger on it again. I let it go, because of God's love.

~KS